When I found out I was pregnant I had the great idea that I would start a blog to write about my pregnancy and my adventures into motherhood focusing on holistic health. The problem was, as I shared in my “first” post, I never truly felt like I was mom material.
When I was pregnant and scared sh*tless complete strangers would come up to me and ask, when I was due, if I knew if it was going to be a girl or boy and if it was my first. Whenever I said “yes it’s my first” they ALL got this look in their eyes and smile on their face, as if they knew a secret that I didn’t. Now I know the secret.
When the doctor announced “it’s a boy” and placed him on my chest, my heart literally stopped and my life changed forever. I became a mom.
I have learnt and grown so much in the last extremely fast month I can’t even believe it. It’s the biggest learning curve I have ever faced and each day brings many new challenges and rewards but one thing I know for sure, begin a mom truly is the best thing that has ever happened to me.
Becoming a new mom means a lot of changes, a lot of stress, a lot of sleepless nights, a lot of tears, a lot of smiles and a depth of love that was unimagable to me one short month ago.
Becoming a new mom means that some days my biggest accomplishment is brushing my teeth and having a shower before noon.
Becoming a new mom means developing a new tolerance for bodily fluids; pee, pooh or breast milk. During the last month it seems neither him nor I have gone more than an hour without having one of the three sprayed, splattered or leaked on us.
Becoming a new mom means very quickly learning to tune out all the “helpful” advice family members, friends and complete strangers want to give you. Everyone wants to help by giving unhelpful contradictory advice. I have learnt to politely smile and follow my instinct.
Becoming a new mom means learning to love your husband (or partner) in a completely different way. The last month has brought us closer than the last eight years we have spent together. Knowing that we are in this together and have a little person relying on us every day has changed our relationship in ways I never thought possible.
Becoming a new mom means learning to let go, it means learning to accept the things you swore you would never do. It means giving yourself a break and letting go of the guilt.
Becoming a new mom means learning to let others help you. I have had the greatest difficulty with this, my extreme type A personality and massive multitasking skills has made this extremely difficult to accept, but without the help of my family I would not have survived the last month.
Finally, and most importantly, becoming a new mom means learning to live in this moment. It means learning to appreciate this precious little being you hold in your arms right now. It means accepting that you have a special gift and a small amount of time before this little one is up and running away from you.
I am thankful every day for this amazing miracle I have been given, the love I have experienced and every second I have spent with him.
To all the new moms out there, I applaud you for getting through the first month and all the ups and downs you have faced. It’s not easy, but every second is worth it, especially the time you spend awake at 3:00 am watching him sleep, you know you should be sleeping but these moments are so precious and fleeting, pure perfection.
So in an effort to accept what is not perfect, my new role and the next chapter of my life and to celebrate making it through the last month, today I am finally officially launching my blog. It’s a work in progress but there is no time like the present. I look forward to sharing my adventures in motherhood with you.
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