It’s starting to get real.
This was a big week, I officially hit the half way mark! It’s funny because I have been counting down wanting to get here thinking that if I could make it halfway I can obviously make it the rest of the way, but now that it’s here I’m not so sure.
It has suddenly occurred to me that time is going rather fast. What’s going to happen if the last half of my pregnancy goes as fast as the first?
According the Webster Online Dictionary the definition of halfway is; in the middle between two points or, not total or complete
This exactly sums up how I’m feeling. I’m in exactly the middle between a place of total comfort and familiarity (where I started) and total uncertainty and unknown (where I’m going). It’s a funny spot to be in because there are so many emotions associated with the halfway point of pregnancy, emotions that seem to go from one extreme to the next.
I’m happy because I’ve come so far, but I’m a bit sad at how far I still have to go. I begin feeling comfortable with my pregnancy symptoms, the way I’m feeling, the way my body is looking and then two days later everything changes again.
I do feel a little stuck, a little “in the middle” between such extreme emotions. Being in the middle is hard, unfortunately as I think about what’s ahead the middle is looking pretty good. That’s my biggest issue with being pregnant, just as you get comfortable and think you have it figured out everything changes, I’ve heard babies are like that so maybe this is just part of my training, mastering the middle.
In order to master the middle you have to remain open and willing to accept whatever comes next, not dwell on what was or worry about what is going to be. That’s the biggest challenge, being okay with right now, even if right now is a scary spot.
So right now I’m feeling somewhere between extreme excitement and extreme nervousness, completely in the middle and trying to be completely comfortable with being constantly uncomfortable.
How did you feel when you reached the middle of your pregnancy? What was your biggest challenge? Do you feel as though you are constantly going from one extreme to the next? I would love to hear about your experience, please leave a comment below.